What is Life All About?

How many times have you asked yourself, "What is life all about?" I've asked myself that question time and time again, but lately I've been repeating it in my mind continually. Everyone wants to know the answer. Everyone wants to know the answers to why we get confused, sad, scared, worried, depressed, heartbroken, and all the other negative feelings that come along in life. So what is life really all about? Why do these things happen, and continually?

I don't know the answer, but I do know what I've been through already. Some things aren't fun to go through, and sometimes you just don't know how to handle certain situations. One thought will tell you to do one thing, and then another thought will come to mind, contridicting the first thought. The hard thing is to figure out what is the right decision to make. It's especially hard when you truly, honestly don't know what will be best for the future. I try to do what I feel GOD is telling me to do, but lately it's made things worse for other people (or one person in particular.)

I do have faith and trust in the Lord, and I do know that things will work out the way GOD wants it to, which I believe will be the best outcome for everyone anyways. It's just so hard sometimes... I get so caught up in frustrations, confusion, and sadness, that I'm not sure if GOD's even paying attention to me. And, to tell you the truth, it's rightfully so if He isn't. I don't deserve it. Actually, none of us do. But, the Lord is overly merciful, gracious, and loving. He understands EVERYTHING, while we're very limited to comprehending things. Sometimes, I just wish GOD could "throw us a bone" once in a while, so we know that He's still here, listening, caring, and wanting the best for us.

When you try your hardest to hear GOD's word and what He's telling you to do, but it ends up making things so bad for other people, it just hurts. It's so confusing. I don't know what to do. I know what my heart is telling me to do for the time being, but it just hurts a whole lot. And now I have to deal with building back a trust with certain people, but I don't know what trust I broke. It's so confusing. All I'm trying to do is what's right... not just for myself, but for everyone's future. It's so hard for me to express in words how deeply I honestly do care about these people (and one person in particular,) and I feel that no one really believes me. I'm constantly going back and forth on my feelings, but I've realized that it's not the time right now to make a decision. Sometimes, you just have to try your best, work hard, and see how things will unfold in the future. Nowadays, everything is about instant gratification, but that's not how GOD works. You can either look at things from an "Earthly" point of view, or from "GOD's" point of view. GOD will always triumph, whether it works out exactly how you planned, or not. Usually, when you stick with GOD, it actually works out a whole lot better in the end. The only thing is this: There are always going to be times of trouble... GOD has to test us somehow. And, if we really trust in Him, He will provide... But first, we have to work really hard. I have a whole lot that I need to work on. I can't wait to just jump into the future, because things are extremely difficult for me right now, in all different aspects of my life. I try my best to keep these difficulties to myself, but sometimes I can't. I'm glad that I have certain people in my life that I can open-up to, although it is very hard for me. Thank you to everyone who has been there for me. I especially want to thank this one person in particular who has shown me so such more about myself, in such a short amount of time. Because of her openness and understanding, I've been able to open myself up more and more. Thank you so much. May GOD bless you all.